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Our digital world is a collective dream. The journey is the point.

The BlueSuburbia world update is now live on itch!
It adds a new poetry world where you gain your ability to fly. I’m proud of this update because the Butterfly poem turned out so beautifully. I’m excited to be able to share it in context of BlueSuburbia.
I still have to update the Steam and Epic Games builds but I wanted itchio to have it first. Itchio has always been the best home for my work.

These ruins of a lighthouse have brittle bones.
Ocean once surrounded it. You know the stories…
Of a great beautiful oasis where titans came to die.
Grief brought you here.
Now you are trapped in an endless cycle, on a world that is lost to you.

In light of all the promise that AI will “revolutionize” gaming, this post is about how AI has already affected the home of experimental games: Itch.io.

This is about the horror of liminal spaces, and the intrinsic surrealism of our digital world… That beautiful awful loneliness of existing in the electric void of shared virtual fantasies that video games are.
Video games are the closest thing that we have to existing in someone else’s dream. Carefully constructed fantasies that we share with players. These are our fever dreams, both pleasant and awful.

BlueSuburbia was a Flash website comprised of a collection of interactive poetry. Each poem was animated in a surrealist, often metaphoric, way to bring the writing to life. The poetry would live in these dreamy worlds, one transitioning to the next. It was presented as a dark neighborhood that you came across in a dream… and there you found a large abandoned home. The home was a living world where you could discover books that were like doorways into poetic realms. The animation style was like Disney’s Fantasia meets late 90’s goth. The poems were often about war, refugees, poverty,...

?*:.?.o So this is amazing! ?.:?*:?’ When I submitted BlueSuburbia to IndieCade I had little expectations for anything happening. Submitting to IndieCade is just a thing you do! I was hoping it would be eligible for one of the exhibits or just get into Night Games. IndieCade announced that Night Games would be an in person event, making that the first since the pandemic hit. It seemed like an exciting time to submit to them. I was floored when I received an email from them saying that it was nominated! Personally I really needed this. BlueSuburbia is a project that...

CW: Trauma “Trauma” sometimes seems like an unfortunately reductive word to describe what these games are… The games that are easy to ignore because they come with lots of trigger warnings so they are “ugh another one of those”, the brave games that are hard to make and even harder to play, the ones that seem to be in abundance but still don’t get talked about enough… There is a bravely pioneering aspect to them that is hard to ignore. Some might brush them off as losers “being high on their own supply”, or one might understand why they will...

It has been well over a year that I decided to learn Unreal so that I can bring my vision of “reviving” BlueSuburbia to life. This was a crash course in Blender, 3D animation, modeling, Unreal, scripting, textures, volumetrics… what any of these things even mean and how to do them right. I still have a long way to go, but I’m proud to be able to finally share an early look at this new BlueSuburbia. The demo was posted on itch.io the other day: https://alienmelon.itch.io/bluesuburbia I already payed for the Steam store listing and will be working on getting...

Idyll is a small social world designed around kinder forms of online conversation. That description alone couldn’t come at a more meaningful time. I’ve been eagerly watching the development of it over Twitter, and have been looking forward to writing about it when it releases. I think it is a profound thing to put into the world in the shadow of “losing” Twitter… with friend groups scurrying to other social media spaces, and overall how things like this tiny game-thing contrast against the more popular online social spaces that we must inhabit. I think it goes without saying that each...